Fallen Walls

I have always been someone that has usually kept several walls up around me to keep me safe. I hate feeling vulnerable because I'm afraid that if I show too much emotion, I will get hurt. So I usually keep personal things to myself and work through life around it. Last fall, those walls began to fall down when Andy and I became more serious. I have always been a strong believer that I would not date, let alone MARRY, someone who is shorter than me. As Andy and I got more serious, my insecurities of being so tall started to overcome the feelings that I had for Andy. I would tell him that I was afraid that we weren't going to work out. I would tell him that I couldn't do it. I would pretty much convince myself that nothing was going to come from our dating. All throughout this time Andy would reply back to me and say something along the lines of, "Elise- you'll get over it" or "I know you can do it". He would say this with complete confidence and I would get so mad because he just didn't understand.
I cant remember the day that I got over it. I don't know if it was one specific day exactly. But either way, I have let those walls fall and I was able to overcome what seemed to be one of the biggest challenges of my life. Isn't it incredible what a little faith and positivity from someone else can help us overcome? I think about other times that I was able to overcome something and it usually always boils down to believing in myself or believing in the confidence that somebody else has for me.
I always want to be that person that will give people that confidence and belief that will help them overcome challenges in their lives. Its incredible what the faith of others can help us overcome in this life. I guess if each one of us realized that our Heavenly Father is there everyday saying the same words that Andy said to me, "Child, I know you can do it", we would soon be able to see the potential that our Heavenly Parents have for us and nothing would be able to stop us. Our purpose in this world is not for us to have walls up that block us from feeling the complete joy that we deserve. Our purpose is to love and to give all that we have. Our purpose is to be those angels that help others get over their insecurities so at some point they will be able to see their true, divine potential.
Thanks Andy. Thank you for helping me overcome a huge challenge in my life so that now we can be together forever. I hope we can both be angels for other people throughout our lives. I hope we can show others and especially our future children that we believe in them. At this moment, my life will be complete.

Traveling Musician

This is a big step for me- blogging that is. I opened up a blog several years ago, forgot the name of it, never updated it, had several friends fall upon it and tell me it looked lame, and then I gave up on the thought of ever blogging again. A new leaf has fallen, the tide has turned, the flowers have budded, whatever you want to call it, I have decided to return in FULL force!
I was driving to work today and was wishing that I had the time (mostly the motivation) to keep up my journal. So much has happened to me in the past couple of months and I would love to document it properly! So now is my chance! Look out world.. I am here to stay!
I really want this blog to be a journal for my life as a married woman! I want to keep track of what Andy and I are going through so at a later time we can print these off and make a book out of it! (You know- keep it on our table so people can read through it when they are REALLY bored, or mainly to show our future gorgeous offspring.) It's brilliant! I know I'm the first one that has ever had this idea, so you can thank me when you make a book of your own journal entries. You're welcome.
Onto bigger and better things- a little thing I like to call PANDORA! I came across this life changing, personally customized, free radio about 1 1/2 years ago as I worked at Deseret Book. I thought it was great then. I would listen to it occassionaly throughout the past year and a half, but this past week I have FALLEN in love! And I have fallen fast! I started out with a Missy Higgins channel on Monday and half of tuesday = revolutionized my world! I was hearing new music left and right! Yesterday I played around with Lady Gaga for a couple hours and today Coldplay and I are livin' it up! I am listening to classics such as "Don't Stop Believing" by Journey and currently I am listening to the The Beatles, "Let It Be" but it still throws in The Postal Service, Mat Kearney, and other great new artists!
Speaking of The Postal Service- isn't it crazy how music can bring you back to a specific time and place in your life. Music has the ability to help me reconnect with past memories and I feel as though I am there- I guess you could say that music is able to take me to another dimension! K well I was sitting here updating spreadsheets at work and The Postal Service came on through my headphones. I didn't really even pay attention but all of a sudden I kept having flashbacks from Hawaii- running on Kamehameha Highway, running in the Mozo 10k, sitting on the beach, and the fresh air blowing on my skin. It was so crazy how I kept having these feelings/flashbacks from Hawaii without me really noticing and then I connected the two- the music has a subconscious connection to Hawaii!! Crazy... Anyways- music is amazing. It changes any bad day into a good day. It moves me. I connect with it. This is why I love coming to work and for 10 hours I can sit and listen to music that inspires me. Moral of the story: I want to give up everything and become a traveling musician.
Well, I like how this blog is going so far. I think I will keep it. Next up: How I am completely in love with the most macho and gorgeous man alive! :) Thanks for listening!!

Oh and P.S. You know what I really hate? Is when I stretch my legs out under my desk (this has happend at multiple jobs) and I get tangled in the computer cords that are pushed into the corner and then I accidentaly turn off the computer! That has happened to me more than I can remember... Oh and this entry was written throughout the day- don't worry! I am a hard worker!!