Today is the First Day.
The First day that you went to School. A.K.A. DayCare
The First day that I went back to work full time after having you.
The First day that we listened to NSYNC the whole way down the hill to cheer up your Momma.
The First day that it took everything in me to keep myself pulled together as we spoke with your DayCare leaders.
The First day that I dropped you off with "strangers".
The First day your dad held me outside the doors of Viewmont to let me cry on his shoulder.
The First day that I went to Keva Juice to drink my sorrows away.
The First day that I cried the whole way to work.
The First day of my "new" life and the commitment to work as hard as I can so that we can enjoy every moment we do have together.
The First day of realizing how much my little Beau man has become apart of me.
Beau- Please know that I love you. It makes me scared and sad to think about your first reaction to waking up at the DayCare to faces that you don't know. I hope you know that those people are there to love you and take care of you while your mom and dad are doing everything we can to provide for you. Please stay strong and be a happy boy while I am away and know that when I come to pick you up at 4:00, we will have many adventures ahead of us.
Good luck on your First day my little man.
xoxoxo
Momma
Oh Elise this breaks my heart! I know it will all go well and I hope this adjustment goes as smoothly as possible.
ReplyDeleteOk. I am bawling! What a special post Elise! I love you and am so proud of all your hard work. Beau is in good hands.
ReplyDeleteleaving your babies is the worst! I cried and sad to say but there is a few more of those crying sad days to come! the only thing that made me feel a tad better was to tell myself that being around others if healthy and good for him! I know doesn't make it any better but ..I will tell you now that I am home with my little I've more the ONLY good side of being away from them every once and a while is you learn to cherish EVERY secon do spend with them, when your at home with.them ally the time Sadly you take them a little for.granted. either way it is hard to send your new baby away with others, call often, have them tell you all about his.day...these things made it a tad easier. good luck, hate it.
ReplyDeleteleaving your babies is the worst! I cried and sad to say but there is a few more of those crying sad days to come! the only thing that made me feel a tad better was to tell myself that being around others if healthy and good for him! I know doesn't make it any better but ..I will tell you now that I am home with my little I've more the ONLY good side of being away from them every once and a while is you learn to cherish EVERY secon do spend with them, when your at home with.them ally the time Sadly you take them a little for.granted. either way it is hard to send your new baby away with others, call often, have them tell you all about his.day...these things made it a tad easier. good luck, hate it.
ReplyDeleteLiterally crying right now. You are a strong Momma and I admire you!
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing momma. Beau will know someday how hard you've worked to give him an amazing life. <3 you miss!
ReplyDeleteElise, I totally cried reading this because my heart remembers when I had to go back to work full time after I had sawyer! It broke my heart. It will get easier but it will always be hard. It just shows how much you love him and how big your heart is! You are a great mama, a proud mama! He will be well taken care of and be just fine. I am convinced its harder on the parent. I hope you can find some comfort in this difficult time! He is one lucky baby boy!!
ReplyDeleteI'm leaving my kids for the first time a week from today and I can't even think about it without tearing up....
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